stars aligning & a sea of yellow

I probably started the draft of this entry back in September or October, when I was diving deep into a rocky period of wrestling with the uncertainties of my circumstances and exhaustion from daily defeats. "Here I am! This is where I'm at!" is what I caught myself saying pretty often in a sarcastic tone. Realizing that I wasn't in the right place to think through anything in a healthy way, I decided to hold off on writing anything down and closed both my Blogger tab and my physical journal. Weeks of mini identity crises turned into months of feeling out of place, unsupported, and forgotten. I couldn't formulate into words what was going on in my head, and I couldn't figure out what to do with myself.

But the thing is, I'm a doer. I'm not the best at just being. I'm also very present-minded (which is one reason why journaling isn't exactly my forte), so I made up my mind that the only thing I could do was to obey the Lord and be faithful to whatever it was that He had placed in front of me—because our God is an intentional God.

And guess what? He done did it. He really blew me out of the water, as always.


my sunlit nook

I have only about a month left in my current apartment until I move into my own studio. Despite the fact that the central air system failed miserably at reaching my bedroom, I very much enjoyed living, working, and resting in this safe haven of mine over this past year. If you know me well, you know that I highly value safe spaces in all senses—physically, emotionally, relationally, spiritually—and this room kept me quite safe throughout the ups and downs of my 22nd trip around the sun. And, as I have spent the majority of my time in this room during quarantine, I wanted to specially document and cherish it on my blog.


springtime magic in philadelphia

Hello, world!

It's been about two weeks since I began my self-quarantine amidst the current COVID-19 crisis. Earlier this month, I went on a few short walks near my apartment to clear my often cluttered mind. During those walks around Center City, I was finally able to find and appreciate the flowers that I had been yearning for throughout the cold winter. I'm sad that we're unable to fully enjoy all of the beauty that spring has to offer us while this quarantine lasts, but I'm learning to cherish the fleeting joys and remember that this is only a temporary pause for a much, much greater good.

To maximize these short amounts of time outside, I decided to dress my best and take photos with the delightful sights I happened upon as I strolled around our neighborhood. It's an interesting thing—I walked along the same exact streets that I would usually take to go to the grocery store or commute to work, but somehow I marveled at each sidewalk corner and every quiet alley in such a way that seemed like I was a tourist in a new city.

So, I think it's safe to say that I'm falling in love with Philly all over again.

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